This is my first posting on my blog.   I just lost my brother unexpectedly at 51 years old.  It was a shock, and a myriad of experiences have bombarded me over the past 6 weeks since he passed.  
Accidental death, unexpected death is so different from watching someone wither away from an illness or an elderly person passing away after a long life.....it is unbelievable.   One phone call your life is changed, no do-overs, no chance to have a conversation about all that you haven't said or an opportunity to express the depth of your love, nothing.   One phone call and they are gone forever.  All the money in the world can't change it.  I am so glad we had a relationship, oh sure it could have been even better, fuller, more time spent together, that will always be the case i think for us all.   But, we had a relationship, he knew I loved him, I knew he loved me.  We talked, laughed, disagreed, gossiped, and hugged.   My heart was heavy, sad, but so grateful we hadn't been at odds.    If you have a sibling, or anyone you are estranged from based on some grudge or resentment, please put it aside, because that precious person, no matter what age, can be taken in a moment.....forever.